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Debbie
My mother is such an inspiration to me. She went to school when my brother and I were young to finish her education and return to the work force in order to give her children all she never had. My father and mother sacrificed everything to give to us kids. As many kids did I never appreciated my mother and I rebelled with all my might. Absurdly believing as a child that I was not loved. The more I pulled away the more they both clung onto me with all their might. The more I pushed, the more I hated the more they pulled and the more they LOVED!!! So many tears she shed, my heart breaks at the thought, her love for me never was shed a drop. It was not until I was a young adult that I began to appreciate all she had done and sacrificed. What hurt me the most was knowing that it was not my actions that hurt her the most it was the fact that she could not be close to me. I can remember her always telling me how she wanted to be my best friend but I thought that was absurd, after all she was the enemy!!! As I entered my adult years I was recognizing how wonderful she was but we could not seem to build that friendship she always longed for until 1998. You see that was when I became a mother myself. Although I had been able to recognize her sacrifices I still could not understand her until my precious son was placed in my arms. A person never knows love or fear until they have a little child placed in their arms knowing that they hold their future in the palms of their hands. It was that day in November that our friendship truley began, the day I began to not just know my mom but begin to understand my mom. Now when I look back on my life I can see where her heart was in every decision she ever made regarding my brother and I. My mother has beeen there for me every step of the way I only wish I would have recognized it sooner. I wish I could have stopped myself from hurting her....of course my mom, the angel she is, only is thankful that we are finally friends regardless of how long it took. I am an adult now, living my own life, raising my own child and yet she is an intrigal part of my daily life wether she realizes it or not. So many times in dealing with my son I think of what she would do or how she would handle a situation before I decide how I will handle it. Recently, I made a decision to make some changes in my life that included major surgery, Gastric Bypass. Although I am an adult my parents once again proved their greatness and dedication by leaving their own jobs and responsibilities to care for me. I was never alone while in the hospital and my son was taken care of as well. Still their sacrificing did not end there becasue following the surgery they insisted I recovered at their home and it is there I stayed with my very active 6 year old to recover. On this mothers day I sit filled with tears wondering how can I repay someone for always believing, always sacrificing, always loving someone who brought me into the world and someone who was there on April 13th the day of my rebirth. Finally I have realized the only thing I can do is to drop to my knees and thank the good Lord for my best friend. To thank the Lord for releasing one of his angels to guide me through my entire life and to promise the Lord that I will continue to pray daily for the strength to be the same mother to my precious son as he blessed me with May 25, 1976 the day I entered this world!!! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!! ~Meagan~ Back to Our Earth Angels- Page 20 |